No, I did not misspell “hypocrisy,” I simply combined it with the suffix “cracy” to indicate a system of control, such as bureaucracy, technocracy, or plutocracy. Therefore, “hypocracy” is “rule by hypocrites.” I expect it to pop up in Urban Dictionary in a year or two, and the regular dictionary sometime next century. Basically, this is a single term for the phrase “do as I say, not as I do.” I’ll discuss some instances of it in a bit, some of which apply to my own life, while the others apply to the world at large.
My life feels like a gaslight fantasy by proxy at the moment. I’m not actually referring to a type of fiction literature at the moment, but instead to the process of “gaslighting,” and for this reason, I actually prefer to call the type of fiction as gaslamp fantasy. Some would classify it as a subset of steampunk that includes magical elements. A lot of Final Fantasy games fit into this category, as does my own work. My own work fits into the category of dieselpunk as well. Anyway, gaslighting. I haven’t been able to think straight for years, barring my occasional moments of clarity. It is for this reason that I’m so unproductive. I have twelve different tank models to make, and I have been stuck on the first for about two weeks now. I want to make a tutorial video for the turret, but I keep putting it off because I can’t sit still, and my mind is elsewhere. I’ve mentioned that I can’t control what ideas pop into my head, so I’m all over the place. Distractions do not help, which is why I’d love to be able to simply shut myself up in a cabin in the middle of Siberia until I get some work done. The biggest distraction by far is my mentally ill mother, a subject I have never mentioned before, but I need advice, and no-one I know IRL has either time or interest to help me, leaving me alone with this massive hindrance to my very existence.
I hate my mother. An awful thing to say, I know, but arrogance and hypocrisy are the two things I despise the most, and she has buckets of both to offer. She is so opinionated that she genuinely believes that her opinions are more valid than anyone else’s, and has actually admitted this. I once mentioned that she hates the colour orange so much that she believes it doesn’t have a right to exist, and will go on twenty-minute tirades whenever the topic is brought up. Now, either this is genetic, since she claims that her entire family suffers from classic sociopathy, and all have this pathological need to be right all the time, or she’s projecting her faults on to others. I largely ignored it until she turned her projection on to me. Apparently, I’ve never done anything with my life. I’ve never gone to a real school, whatever the hell that means, even though I have an AAS, BS, and I’m currently looking at master’s programs. I need to get my “union card,” according to her – wait, I thought a BS was the union card. I’ve never held a real job, either, even though I used to be an inspector at a company that made aircraft parts, I worked nine or more hours every day, plus a half-day on Saturdays (though not every Saturday), and I made decent money. I’m not a real engineer, either, something that she has told me since the day I earned my BS in manufacturing engineering, and I demanded she tell me what a real engineer is every single time. I finally got an answer yesterday – a “real” engineer is a mechanical engineer. All other types of engineers, evidently, have no right to call themselves engineers. Congrats, Aishwarya, if you’re reading this, yours is the only real type of engineering. The rest of us are self-aggrandising incompetent idlers who cause more problems than we solve. I’ve told her “putting me down may be your way of motivating me, but it doesn’t work. I gave up trying to prove you wrong years ago, because nothing I’ve done has ever been good enough for you. I have no reason to achieve anything in life, because you are the only person around to give me any validation, and instead, you turn your nose up at everything I’ve ever done, zasranka.” By the way, this was before I started my work online, and I’ve gotten more support from the internet in the past six years than I have from my own mother for my entire life. So, to all of you who have helped me keep using my skills and begin building an online business while my own family actively hinders my every effort, thank you.
My mother never concedes anything that she thinks is meaningful. Every “flaw” she is willing to acknowledge in herself, she seems to think is either unimportant, or a virtue. Apparently, she believes that she has the right to speak her mind, and that she has the right to interrupt others to get her point across, but also has the right to not be interrupted. She’s loud and obnoxious to begin with, and whenever someone tries to interrupt her, she just talks louder and louder until someone, inevitably, loses the shouting match. She gets extremely bitter when it’s her, because it’s rare someone can (and wants to) out-shout her. No-one can get a word in edgewise (yes, that really is a word), and she wonders why she has no friends. Consequently, this is why I have no friends IRL (but plenty online, and we’ll see how many I still have left after this post), and she’s never met most of my father’s friends. By the way, funny story: many years ago, shortly after I was adopted, my father introduced one of his female colleagues to us. After that, whenever she called the house, she would immediately hang up if my mother answered the phone. My mother concluded that they were having an affair. I, however, don’t play social games, so I just outright asked one day if that was true in front of everyone. The response was as I suspected: “no, I just don’t like talking to your mother. She’s very rude.” There was a bit more, but I won’t repeat it here, and even though I haven’t mentioned anyone by name, if any of those parties involved ever read this, they know who they are.
Well, now that I’ve gotten that off my chest, it’s time to talk about government hypocracy, and why I think climate science is completely pointless. Did you know that the largest polluter in the “civilised” world, and possibly the entire world, is the U.S. military? I was not one bit surprised when I found this out. By the way, Bill Astore, in the unlikely event you didn’t already know that little tidbit, I’d like to know what your thoughts are. Anyway, to continue, I hold the position that most “research” on climate change is total nonsense. A lot of it is politically motivated, and funded by parties with a vested interest in maintaining the dominance of the fossil fuel industry, which the military relies on extensively. This is one of those rare instances where there is far more junk science than real science, and real science will suffer (and has already) because of it. Now, let me be clear: I am not, nor have I ever been, a denier of climate change. However, I think that everything that Al Gore has done has been a detriment, rather than a benefit, to solving the problem. In fact, everywhere I look, I see nothing but backfiring efforts with regard to solving the problems of pollution and anthroprogenic climate change. For instance, California has some of the strictest controls when it comes to clean air, but the laws are so poorly written that when clouds of pollution waft over from China, the people unfortunate enough to live wherever the clouds end up get punished for dirty air that they are not even responsible for. And you wonder why Californians are fleeing in droves to Texas. Let’s just hope they don’t bring the mindset with them. Then again, why should I care? I don’t live in Texas, and I don’t want to, either. I want to go back to Russia. Anyway, climate change used to be a non-partisan issue in the United States, but partisan politics has become so nonsensical that whatever one side says, the other seems compelled to state the exact opposite in response, even if it is the complete denial of reality! It’s even worse when both major parties decide to unilaterally oppose President Trump, as if nothing he does is ever good. If he opposes restricting the First Amendment, the never-Trump-ers support its restriction. Don’t believe me? Just search Google for “Diane Feinstein journalism lisence,” and see what pops up. Reactionary politics at its finest, folks! Bad decisions all round. So, we live in a world where private citizens are penalised for having cars that blow just a tad bit too much black smoke, while hydraulic fracturing operations are exempt from environmental regulations, and military vehicles are not subject to the same emissions standards as dirt-bikes. I have a massive migraine distorting my vision, every keystroke seems as loud as a gunshot, and yet I think I can still see the farce for what it is. Rule by hypocrites, folks!
As for science itself, it is built on heresy. Science has neither required beliefs nor prohibited beliefs, and therefore it is the enemy of religion. It is also the enemy of political correctness (PC), because PC makes certain ideas taboo. Truth does not need PC to prop it up the way lies do. The idea that racial differences are more than skin-deep is politically incorrect, for instance, and yet science has shown things such as: Asians have 15-20% longer digestive tracts than the rest of the world, owing to a rice-based agriculture; blacks are more susceptible to strokes than anyone else; Europeans have a much higher tolerance to milk sugars and proteins as adults, whereas other races lose this tolerance as children; Latin Americans are more likely to never grow third molars than any other race, etc. By the way, don’t even get me started on intelligence or personality. Different breeds of dogs are known to have certain personalities, so why not different ethnicities of humans? If science demonstrates that something you don’t like is true, no amount of PC-indoctrination or moral grandstanding (a.k.a. virtue signalling) is going to change the fact. Facts don’t care about your feelings, and I wish Ben Shapiro would live by his own damn quote. However, in a world where politics seems more at the forefront of everyone’s minds than ever before, the truth gets drowned out. When so much fake science is being used to prop up political positions and corporate empires, real science that disagrees may be lumped in with fake science, and the truth can be dismissed with a wave of the hand, because “that’s not evidence, that’s just a bunch of paper!” Then again, why am I surprised that the world is going through yet another moral panic? Fear makes money for the fearmongers.
I know that I’ve been extremely incoherent thus far, but there is hope. Moral panics never last, because every single one has been built on lies. The temperance movement that led to Prohibition was built on puritanical lies about alcohol causing debauchery and that all the world’s ills would be solved if only people did “good, honest work,” and didn’t drink, or smoke, or play games, or have fun at all. No, boredom leads to problems, so banning fun is a good way to make monsters out of normal people. There were the two Red Scares, though they were built on exaggerations and misdirection rather than faulty notions, and then there was my personal favourite, which ended around the time I moved to the U.S. This was the Satanic Panic, during which Pokémon and Dungeons and Dragons were famously labelled as forms of demonic magick (a.k.a. sorcery). I would argue that Warhammer should have been targeted as well, because descriptions of the chaotic pantheon cause goody two-shoes fundie dunces to break down in tears of blood, for it is far darker than the other two. However, I suspect that the reason Warhammer wasn’t targeted was simply because it wasn’t as well known, and I’m glad that it wasn’t. Then again, I honestly don’t know if it had even crossed the pond yet at the height of the Satanic Panic. Now, what I’ve noticed about nearly all moral panics are religiously-motivated, i.e. the religious right is usually the one preaching about morality and that everything great about western civilisation is sinful and degrading to human character. However, that’s no longer the case, because the PC crowd is mostly on the left these days, and openly denouncing religion as immoral. “If you can’t beat ’em, join ’em,” goes the old American colloquialism, and now the fearmongering is coming from both sides, with both the left and right, religious and atheist, demonstrating their sensitivities and irrationality. Liberty and science are both under attack in the name of safety and morality, and if we as denizens of Earth give the moralists their way, we will get nothing and they will laugh all the way to the bank. However, as I mentioned, moral panics never last, because humanity as a whole is much more compassionate, realistic, truth-seeking, and freedom-loving than the oppressive regimes that have ruled over them, past and present. As modern politics continue their farcical devolution, they represent more and more radical fringes of society, and the more radical the fringe is, the more mainstream the objection. This is ultimately what becomes of strictly reactionary politics, and one day, when one of them says that the sky is blue, and the other says “no, the sky is red, because you’re a liar,” then the world will stop spinning and fling everyone off this ride – figuratively, that is. In fact, because he is the provocateur-in-chief, I’m genuinely surprised that Trump hasn’t done something quite this obvious yet (or maybe he has and I missed it, since I sometimes ignore what’s going on stateside to catch up on happenings across the pond, it wouldn’t be the first time) – all he has to do is say “believe me” either before or after a statement that is true, and we all agree is true, but since disagreeing with him is a reflex that some people seem to have, it will simply obliterate what little credibility they have left and finally drive them out of government (highly fanciful wishful thinking right here). Maybe then, more intellectually valid criticisms, addressing Trump as a symptom, rather than the cause of America’s problems, will no longer be drowned out by the current deluge of “orange man bad” reactionary politics. After all, spending your entire life lying loses you credibility. Calling out another liar makes you a hypocrite. Calling someone who tells the truth a liar makes you the mold on the bottom of the barrel, even if that person has told more lies than true statements. In the words of Ross Perot, “nobody likes to be called a liar, but to be called a liar by Bill Clinton is a really unique experience.”
I’m done. I have videos to make.